yesterday, justin and i went out to take pictures in a light rain. i always like doing that w/ him. there's this feeling of trying to out do each other in a playful way. it's a blast to see what we come out w/, but even if it's nothing it was at least fun. i got a few good ones.
i saw Lady In The Water; i loved it. it was different from all of his movies. and there was no twist at the end to change the entire movie. i think i identified w/ the message of trying to find yourself. i feel stuck in a confusing time. wondering what to do. i felt like i was on the same page as the characters.
i've had this feeling of my guts churning for days. i'm actually growing up but i don't think i entirely want to. i think on the inside i'm still just a kid; not having anything to really care about. i like having a safe home that i'm comfortable in w/ parents i get along w/. it's a rare thing i suppose.
i'm completely scared of being on my own; of being alone.
so i don't have a job anymore. my last day of target was friday. it was a good day; like the job. i will miss that 10%.
i go the long winters new cd. so far i am a bit let down. but we'll see....
