Growing Old: Static to Stagnant.

I'm tired. and I should be because it is 2:02 am. More than being tired, I should be studying for my exam that is at 10:20 am. This class should be taken seriously, which is less than how it is. But I'm tired of more than being awake. Actually that may be a good description of it.

I'm in a mood to listen to sad beautiful songs such as "The Temptation of Adam" by Josh Ritter, Eric Bachmann, Jon Foreman, or Denison Witmer. I don't want loud music.

I listen to Bachmann, Foreman, and Ritter's amazing story-like lyrics and I settle down into my mood. This is the mood that I would use to describe me. Maybe nostalgic isn't quite the right word. It's more of a feeling of just thinking. I imagine myself on a swing in late fall just looking over my life and reliving the stories that I've had. actually, I guess that is nostalgia. But it's not of my life - it's the life that I live thru these songs.

I don't see beauty like I used to. I miss photography and finding the beauty out of the brokenness of things. That always made me feel better.

This is an old picture that I came across today.

Cause nothing here ever changes

It's the same old thing everyday

Don't you know little birdie

You're the only one worth your weight

- Little Bird by Eric Bachmann