This Is For Logan.

i thought i'd post this because it's amazing. and i know how much logan will love it. (click the title.)
the third season of scrubs comes out May 9th.

in the news is the news of Fluke recording. very soon...we will be recording an EP to end all EPs.
my neck's been killing me, it's getting better. a chiropractor at church showed me some stretches for it.
now i go back to playing w/ justin.

Amusement Park Princesses Aren't Pretty.

so i'm twenty today. i don't like that i'm getting older.
i have no idea what i want to say.
my days have consisted entirely of Zelda since i've gotten home.

but i've realized:
that my days of home cooked meals are numbered.
that i'm saying goodbye.
that i'm closing doors.
i'm opening doors.
i'm committing.
i'm taking a step.
it will all get harder.
i don't have to close doors.
i'm losing things.
i'm gaining things.
i'm ready for this.
i have ambitions.
i'm too lazy to get them done.
i don't want to work for things, but i have to.
i can't wait to quit target.


we all have people that we look up to. they inspire us. they give us awe.
where do they get that power? is it that they are real? that they have good days along w/ bad ones. they have dreams, even some they've lain aside for you. they're worn out, torn between decisions, not making rent. they like to think. they're just as lame as you.

is that what makes them beautiful?

The Youth and Beauty Brigade.

Here is a picture catalog of my time here in the NC, or at least a few:

The creepy factory that we visited:

Dying max's hair blue:


What his hair looks like afterwards:

This is a few of us walking to Jordan Lake, from Chelsy's (logan, lily, chelsy's back):

Our friend Travis, the dead catfish:

This is Logan, w/ his big club stick.

Here's what he did w/ it.


a few random shots of carey, lily, and my sara:





needless to say, we've had fun. today we went to see a movie and then sara and i gallivanted about in search of a gift for kathy, sara's mom (whom i share my birthdate with). then we headed back towards home, passing onto Siler City where more dead fish floated into our scene. so now we're home, playing w/ our finger puppets and enjoying our last night together...

College Material.

so i guess a lot of things have kind of happened since i last posted.
my sister was in for the weekend. her and i had a good time. we went to my Grandma's on Easter Sunday. it was a pretty day mingled in w/ all of the rainy ones. i do love rain tho. i took a lot of pictures there; once i get a chance i'll put some up.
my interview w/ Sylvia went very well. after she found out i wasn't in prison for the two years i took off, she let me know that i was accepted. all i have to do is get a paper from FSU and apply for my classes and housing.
it is so weird to think that, unless something completely unexpected comes up, i will be living here next year. i'm still kind of in shock i think. i'm excited. it will be such a change tho. i'm ready for something new.
leaving will be rough; saying goodbye to some people. leaving opportunities. but i think more will come out of this than me staying around Clarksburg. and most of all sara and i can finally be together like a real couple. that's very important.
crazy.
so during my interview, she was telling me about the clubs and how i should get involved in them. she then showed me some and explained a few. the first one was for Gays and Lesbians. i thought that was odd. i hope she didn't think i was gay...or a lesbian...
last night brian, adam, alli, sara, and i went to some old creepy factory. i have pictures of that too. i'll put them up later.
later on creeps.

...Our Vineyards In Bloom.

big, big news. my interview w/ UNCG is scheduled for next tuesday. i'm excited yet very nervous at the same time. i'd like to think that sylvia will be this really interesting and very cool and collected lady who will be interested in me and not just about me loving the idea of school. that i'll get to talk to her and that my honest answers will not cause her to send me away.
at work i, did what i do so often, which was set up a senerio where that was just the case. i don't feel like writing that all out. it was one of my monologues where i tell it like it is. i do that a lot in my head. it's when i want to say so much but i don't want to be real or hurt feelings or be looked at cross-eyed.
needless to say, i've thought about every way this may go.
i'm having the hardest time getting my workshop straightened out.
so Fluke is looking at recording in the near future. kind of a "before it's too late" thing.




now i give joe the elaborate background of they Might Be Giants. see ya next week.

Please Tell Us Why You Had To Hide Away For So Long.

this picture has been lying around in the youth room for months. i love it. i don't know if you can see, but they are smiling. i find it endearing. i hope i'm like that in my old days.

i went out and took pictures yesterday. it was so beautiful, i couldn't deny myself the fresh air, the wonderful clouds, and new vibrant colors. i headed out into the brisk spring air (tho it is summer) w/ my iPod set on Matt Costa. he's amazing. go buy his CD "Songs We Sing". that's all i'll say about that.
so i walked around; passing old people, children, and dogs. it was a very enjoyable day.
i have pictures up on my Flickr that i took. here are a few of my favorites:








*while looking around for lyrics for "The New Pornographers songs, i found that their female member has a solo album out. and her name is Neko Case. this struck me as odd because i just bought a song by such an artist. after searching my addictioin, wikipedia, i found that she in fact is the girl from TNP. and upon further research, i found that she was an early drummer for the 90's NY indie rock band, Cub. yes, that's right: the same Cub that wrote the song "new york city" that was later covered by They Might be Giants. amazing.
of course everyone knows that ben gibbard (death cab) and jenny lewis (rilo kiley) are in the postal service along w/ a guy from Dntel. Spoon and Vanderslice help each other. Vanderslice and beulah did so. along w/ Death cab and vanderslice. and Death cab and Nada Surf, and Death cab and the Long Winters. and Sean Nelson previously of The Long Winters is the lead singer of Harvey Danger. not to mention the Shins covering the postal service. i love how my bands help each other.

Waiting For Tubes To Heat Up.

sleep is a rare commodity in the world of me as of late. mostly due to my own choices and my work schedule.
it's been sometime, i know. not very many revelations in the past week. so i'll just let you in on some things.
i have applied at UNCG and i'm awaiting their response (which i hope is an invitation). i've been thinking up skit ideas for camp; adam and i have made some incredible storiese up. i'm very excited for that. and i've been forming my concert footage into videos for the public lately. it's very enjoyable.
i haven't really even taken too many pictures lately. it's been so dreary lately. everytime it's nice i have to work. i miss doing that.
i have this overwhelming feeling of being lost and even stuck some. i'm waiting and relying so much on getting into UNCG. i want so badly to make something of myself but i really do not want to have to work. very american, i know. i wish playing guitar and writing lyrics would come more easily to me. i get so frustrated w/ learning; i can't seem to do it fast enough. i don't feel like i'm growing all that much.
but i'm so ready for a change. i want to be near sara more than anything. i just want a new "everyday life". i'm very afraid of that very fact too.
i hope this works out for me.