Waiting For Tubes To Heat Up.

sleep is a rare commodity in the world of me as of late. mostly due to my own choices and my work schedule.
it's been sometime, i know. not very many revelations in the past week. so i'll just let you in on some things.
i have applied at UNCG and i'm awaiting their response (which i hope is an invitation). i've been thinking up skit ideas for camp; adam and i have made some incredible storiese up. i'm very excited for that. and i've been forming my concert footage into videos for the public lately. it's very enjoyable.
i haven't really even taken too many pictures lately. it's been so dreary lately. everytime it's nice i have to work. i miss doing that.
i have this overwhelming feeling of being lost and even stuck some. i'm waiting and relying so much on getting into UNCG. i want so badly to make something of myself but i really do not want to have to work. very american, i know. i wish playing guitar and writing lyrics would come more easily to me. i get so frustrated w/ learning; i can't seem to do it fast enough. i don't feel like i'm growing all that much.
but i'm so ready for a change. i want to be near sara more than anything. i just want a new "everyday life". i'm very afraid of that very fact too.
i hope this works out for me.