and i can't get online at home on my mac to put up pictures and update, that really gets me steamed.
there's more tho. i just heard that the Juliana Theory broke up. that is what i'm talking about. things should be going better.
i'm stuck here at the church listening to The long winters. i have at least found a sound for this moment in my life. maybe that's it. i don't have a tune for my life that goes a little past the moment right now.
i'm realizing how much i still love North Carolina and it's inhabitants and how i feel like i'm more myself there. but i'm seeing too, what's so nice about Clarksburg. i have friends. everytime i think Fluke is dead and it should be, we all come together in a weird way and play and it's amazing. tonight is one of those nights. i don't know what to do about it.
i miss my conversations w/ friends where we get deep. tho, that's kind of happening around me right now. haha, it's so enjoyable.
i just don't feel like i'm who i should be right now. there are too many things that i want, but not enough do. there are so many pictures i want to put on the internet right now. but i can't because i don't have time. and because i'm lazy. there's my life. so much i want to do, so much i could do; i can do. i'm just too lazy.
yesterday i drove out and took some pictures. i walked thru the park today and took some. and i took some around my house. i do love taking pictures. i'm afraid i might be creating an addiction.
i'm not happy here. i'm not unhappy, i just know it could be so much better.
here are some pictures i've taken over the past few days:
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as soon as i posted this, iChat and AOL let me in. amazing. Things get better...keep your head up.
