Can You Feel It? I Feel It. There's Something In The Air.

I haven't written in a long time. It almost feels odd to sit and write here and try to search for words. There isn't anything I've really thought out and felt I needed to write about. Now that I think about it I can't really remember what I've thought about lately. I think I've just been living. But it's been fun. I've enjoyed spending time with friends. Most all of my time has been spent with them lately.

Tonight I'm stuck at home cos my car is still in the shop from a little accident I had. So even though the passenger side door won't open and I'll be on my donut for a couple days - I can't wait to have it back. But then my excuses for not looking for a job are fewer.

I do feel that I'm ready for more. But I'm still feeling lost. Not really lost...but misplaced. I've been in my house for two months and I still feel like I'm living out of a suitcase.

But life still feels good. I guess I haven't posted that actually, as I deleted a draft that I had been working on. But it does. I've made decisions that I stand by and feel that they were the best for me. I've let people down and hurt people but it was necessary. Life can't be all about making others feel better - it has to be about you sometimes. And I think I'm at the "me" point of my life. I like it. I've been feeling lately that I need more in my life. A place to call home and be a part of - and that is slowly happening. For that, I am grateful.

It's odd to think of where things were and how they've been recently and how there is no pattern to predict the future with. Next week it could all be different. But that is life, and I'd rather live it not knowing and being overturned from time to time than seeing it unfolded before me.

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Well, I've been kidnapped by Ashley Kate and Kristi so I have to get to work on this puzzle now while Kristi makes us brownies to eat as we watch Pride & Prejudice. Yep, this is my life and I'm very pleased.